My Weekend...

in math on friday i realized i was going to see my mom and i got really excited. when i saw here i got a letter from Grandmother Opal Brimhall, she had put 20 buck in it. i was shcoked. Cheri also made me cupcakes, she made three for all of us but i took them all. boy o boy were they good! i ate some food then went to lay in my bed and i dosed off. i was rudly woken up when i had to go to theater for our first performance. it went great and it was so fun. i was so tired though.

the next day i didnt do anything really but catch up on sleep. my dad came in and had a talk with me. he basically said i shouldnt have yelled at beth, "my mother figure" and that i was wrong and it didnt matter i had to walk home. he said that i kept causing fihgts and i asked what he ment and he just gave me this look till i said i really didnt understand and he said i had this sorry attutiude and i was causing things. i also need to open my heart and stop being so mean. then he went off on my grandmother then my mom. finally i just told him to stop talking about my mom like that because i didnt want to hear it. he got made and slamed my door. soon enough if they keep slaming my door it will break.

i went to the play upset and not focused. when i went on stage i was saying my lines without thinking about them. they just came out even though i didnt know what i had said when i went off stage. everyone said it sounded normal so i guess im good. lol Lucas came to the play and i was shocked, probably the best suprise ive had all week. dad took me out to bahama bucks afterward and i went to bed.

slep till around 6 and then eat my bahama bucks. i cut my hair and then dyed the bottom of it them cut it again and dyed it again. i like the way it turned out. then i made doughnuts with purple frosting and pink sprinkles. i was talking to one of dylans friends and he made me really upset so i put on my shoes and ran. dad was gone as well as beth because they were getting the other kids. i was so mad i just kept running not knowing where or what is was gunna do. i finally took off back home after a while and dad got home before i did. thank goodness he didnt say anything to me or i would have been dead. i went straight to my bed and passed out. i hadnt ran that hard since ive come here.

woke up to my phone buzzing  and texted for a few hours. tesa and i got into a cupcake fight and she got frosting all over my face. then she chased me into the bathroom and got me again so i shoved the cupcake into her mouth but she spit it out. got even more upset from texts then went to bed. bad dreams lately, not good. this morning i woke up 45 mins late and hardly made the bus. i want today to be a good day but chances are it wont be. gabby ignored me, em and meg still seem weird around me. dylan and i are.... a mess lol and lucas doesnt really talk to me since i told him i was moving. at least i have ben to talk to.

ive been so frustrated lately. people just make me upset. at first i was so mad and sad i was going to my moms because things here were going to good, now that they have been doing down hill and fast i cant wait till i go to my moms. my dads had a sorry attitude since he found out that we have to leave. his lose i guess. everyone, besides my mom, told me things about my dad and usually they werent good and at first i believed them because its all i knew then i decided that its what theyve experienced not what i did so i didnt believe them and let things roll off my shoulder. now i know what he is like because ive experienced it personally.

if coming here had tought me anything its to enjoy things while they last, nothing lasts forever. and i love my mom more than anything and i have NO idea what id do without her. also that i will always have my sister, she the best thing ive ever beem blessed with. at first she bothered me and was annoying but now i know that we were made to be together. when she left this weekend i was so sad and im too glad were not been split up. dont take this for grantite. its not worth it in the end. you see what you miss and you wont be able to get it back. the little things in life matter the most, not the biggest things.