April 15, 2011

Wednesday was not a good day. all week i was getting yelled at by people for doing something that i didnt do or just stupid reasons. the day before my teacher went off on me for saying "its never been that way" i didnt have attitude or anything. all my freidns were shocked she did that. anyway, i was having a bad week already and usually i take whatever someone says to me and blow it off but this week it was really bothering me. i texted beth to come and get me before it was time so she wouldnt be late. she hadnt come 13 mins later so i texted again, no reply. it was 18 mins after the time she was gunna get me so i walked home, its about 3-4 miles to home. i didnt mind walking but the fact that im a teenage gril walking home on a high way in the dark makes me upset. i finally got home and went straight to my room threw my stuff down and went to the bathroom so i wouldnt have to deal with anyone. my sis opened the door and told me to get my clothes, i blew up and said go away i dont care. not more thatn 5 seconds later beth yelled and me and asked what was going on. i told her to leave me alone im not in the mood but she kept yelling. i started to cry and yelled i was pissed i had to walk home. she told me that she texted me, which she didnt and i told her to get me at 730 not 7 and that i was supposed to txt her and i told her id did and she called me a liar and said i was bullshit. i yelled back and she slamed my door and cried to my dad over the phone. so next time i see him im gunna get yelled at... yah me!

tesa came in and saw i was crying and gave me a hug and said, "i love you" even though i had just yelled at her not but 5 mins ago. she got me some dinner and water. she was being so sweet and did whatever she could to make me happier. we even had a warm hearted conversation, i cant remember the last time we did that. i LOVE that girl! shes the best sister ever! i am so glad God gave her to me, he knew i would need her someday, that day is now and for the rest of my life.

Yesterday had to have been the longest day in my life. i didnt get to bed the night before till about 1030 and woke up at 420. i got ready and went to school, missing seminary. in the morning i got a teddy bear from a close friend. i got pulled out of school at 945 to go to Queen Creek Performing Arts Center. i was there until 830 last night and didnt go to bed until about 1030 again. i was so tired the last few  hours we were their that i couldnt keep my eyes open. my feet were killing em and my body ached. it was a long day. the first run through we did very good, almost no one made any mistakes. the second run through was terrible, my worst yet. everyone messed up even me and i hadnt messed up yet. so much for that. lol we got the stage make up and had to put it on. i did some boys make up... hahah it was the funniest thing ever, love ya Gilbert. someone came in and filmed us after that and they said i did the best ive ever done which made my day.

today is the day of our first play. im a little nervous but in know we will do great. i wasnt able to do any of my work all week so im a little stressed out about that but i think once this is all over things may go back to the way they were. i just hope i dont go tot sleep in class...

April 13, 2011

Yesterday was a long day. i got yelled at by a teacher for not doing anything and and friend and i were having a discussion about the last day of school and how having finals on the last day is stupid. the teacher got into the discussion and i said well its nver been that way, refurring to having finals on the last day. she blew up on me yellign that its always been that way and that its been on the calender for two years and if i have a problem with it then  to go look it up. i also had practice until 630 so i was already having a bad day and that just made everything worst.

Today i am in classes until 945 then i have to got to the Queen Creek Perforiming Arts Center all day until 7 so im going to be very tired. ive been so stressed out lately and everything is bothering me. my friend thinks im mad at her when ive explained several times that i wasnt but oh well. long day today, i just hope everythign can get better and soon. i really need it!

Dreams

its said that if you remember a dream youve had it before.
so if you have a dream that keeps happening than youve had it a lot of times.
right when i moved here i kept having dreams and they all came true,
i knew things were gunna happen before they did.
i was worried about knowing what was gunna happen but it made
me feel like i was doing the right things, like they were supposed to happen.
they stopped happening a few months ago and at first it bothered me
because i got used to know what was happening then i got used to not
having them. Recently i sarted having the dreams again. it kind of worries me
because i wouldnt concider all of my dreams dreams but more of nightmares,
things i dont want to come true.

April 11, 2011

ummm... well im not sure. its wasnt an exciting weekend. i made doughnuts, dad ate most of them. tesa and i got into a fight again but that was fun. the goats got into the neighbors so we had to get them and then we tried to rope the caves, dad needs to learn how to rope really badly. Snowflake thought she was gunna herd them which worked for the most part. theyre scared of her but then the calf kicked her, shes fine but after that she was too tired to keep funning.

it snowed on the mountians this weekend, it was really pretty and cold! dad let me drive the truck again, i feel like i have so much power driving that thing. this week is my play and im starting to stress out about it. this whole week is crazy. today and tomorrow i stay till 6:30, wednesday till 7, thursday till 8 and then its the play friday and saturday. i dont get to go to my moms this week which really makes me sad, i was looking forward to seeing her.

im thinking that since i am moving that i should change something about myself. maybe ill dye my hair blonde...

April 9, 2011

I stayed up till about 1 last night watching movies and eating ice cream. Woke up around 6 and made a yummy breakfast. Sarah and I collected the eggs and found out we had 15 dozen eggs... Got Eggs? Lol at 9 I went to play practice, which I'm still at. Its been raining all night and day. I absolutly LOVE the smell the rain brings. It makes me soo happy! :)

April 8, 2011

Yesterday just happen to be a half day so Emmy, Gibby, Meg, and i all went simming. lets just say do NOT go swimming in April, it was freezing, luckily your body got numb after a while so the cold didnt bother us so bad. it was so much fun! meg and i were the only ones who went in willingly. we just wanted to have a good memory and that was exactly what it was. gibby brought popcorn and the wind blew it over and into the swimming pool so i jumped in to save the popcorn but it was all gone:(

we went home about two hours later and i went over to megs. we ended up going to the park which was fun at first but than this kid came over, while we were on top of the monkey bars, and touched my legs and trying to touch us, CREEPER! finally i took off running and he couldnt catch us so he stopped but then went back to meg and i had to save her, im her hero;). he threw her water bottle at me and it hit her. i told him we were gunna tell his mom but he didnt seem to care. then other kids came so we just left and played volleyball infont of her house.

I was exahusted when i was finally able to go home, gibbys house. then she made me curl her hair at like nine so i did it but almost fell asleep doing her hair lol. then i went to be at ten and woke up at four for seminary, boy o boy do i love waking up that early... blehhh. seminary made me sad today, we sang the song that was sung at Great Grandpa Brimhall's Funeral. i almost started to cry remembering how sweet it sounded that day. i think its my new favorite song in fact.

Lucas Gage Jarman is about to get his butt kicked....