April 13, 2011

Yesterday was a long day. i got yelled at by a teacher for not doing anything and and friend and i were having a discussion about the last day of school and how having finals on the last day is stupid. the teacher got into the discussion and i said well its nver been that way, refurring to having finals on the last day. she blew up on me yellign that its always been that way and that its been on the calender for two years and if i have a problem with it then  to go look it up. i also had practice until 630 so i was already having a bad day and that just made everything worst.

Today i am in classes until 945 then i have to got to the Queen Creek Perforiming Arts Center all day until 7 so im going to be very tired. ive been so stressed out lately and everything is bothering me. my friend thinks im mad at her when ive explained several times that i wasnt but oh well. long day today, i just hope everythign can get better and soon. i really need it!

Dreams

its said that if you remember a dream youve had it before.
so if you have a dream that keeps happening than youve had it a lot of times.
right when i moved here i kept having dreams and they all came true,
i knew things were gunna happen before they did.
i was worried about knowing what was gunna happen but it made
me feel like i was doing the right things, like they were supposed to happen.
they stopped happening a few months ago and at first it bothered me
because i got used to know what was happening then i got used to not
having them. Recently i sarted having the dreams again. it kind of worries me
because i wouldnt concider all of my dreams dreams but more of nightmares,
things i dont want to come true.

April 11, 2011

ummm... well im not sure. its wasnt an exciting weekend. i made doughnuts, dad ate most of them. tesa and i got into a fight again but that was fun. the goats got into the neighbors so we had to get them and then we tried to rope the caves, dad needs to learn how to rope really badly. Snowflake thought she was gunna herd them which worked for the most part. theyre scared of her but then the calf kicked her, shes fine but after that she was too tired to keep funning.

it snowed on the mountians this weekend, it was really pretty and cold! dad let me drive the truck again, i feel like i have so much power driving that thing. this week is my play and im starting to stress out about it. this whole week is crazy. today and tomorrow i stay till 6:30, wednesday till 7, thursday till 8 and then its the play friday and saturday. i dont get to go to my moms this week which really makes me sad, i was looking forward to seeing her.

im thinking that since i am moving that i should change something about myself. maybe ill dye my hair blonde...

April 9, 2011

I stayed up till about 1 last night watching movies and eating ice cream. Woke up around 6 and made a yummy breakfast. Sarah and I collected the eggs and found out we had 15 dozen eggs... Got Eggs? Lol at 9 I went to play practice, which I'm still at. Its been raining all night and day. I absolutly LOVE the smell the rain brings. It makes me soo happy! :)

April 8, 2011

Yesterday just happen to be a half day so Emmy, Gibby, Meg, and i all went simming. lets just say do NOT go swimming in April, it was freezing, luckily your body got numb after a while so the cold didnt bother us so bad. it was so much fun! meg and i were the only ones who went in willingly. we just wanted to have a good memory and that was exactly what it was. gibby brought popcorn and the wind blew it over and into the swimming pool so i jumped in to save the popcorn but it was all gone:(

we went home about two hours later and i went over to megs. we ended up going to the park which was fun at first but than this kid came over, while we were on top of the monkey bars, and touched my legs and trying to touch us, CREEPER! finally i took off running and he couldnt catch us so he stopped but then went back to meg and i had to save her, im her hero;). he threw her water bottle at me and it hit her. i told him we were gunna tell his mom but he didnt seem to care. then other kids came so we just left and played volleyball infont of her house.

I was exahusted when i was finally able to go home, gibbys house. then she made me curl her hair at like nine so i did it but almost fell asleep doing her hair lol. then i went to be at ten and woke up at four for seminary, boy o boy do i love waking up that early... blehhh. seminary made me sad today, we sang the song that was sung at Great Grandpa Brimhall's Funeral. i almost started to cry remembering how sweet it sounded that day. i think its my new favorite song in fact.

Lucas Gage Jarman is about to get his butt kicked....

NEWS

So most of you have probably heard already, i am moving back to my moms... there is some very strong mixed feelings here. i want to stay because of friends and school but im glad to be able to move back to my moms. im guessing that im moving after this school year is over although im not sure. you may be wondering how i found out the news, well when i got home yesterday my dad called me and jesse down stairs and told us, " i hope your happy, you guys got what you wanted. your moving back to your moms. i dont think you understand how much this will affect you..." thats all i was told on this subject and i know nothing more.

i want my last few days here to be unforgetable. i rather not dwell on what is to come but have the best time i can while it lasts, and id rather not cry. to all my friends i hope you know i already miss you and love you even more. im glad i had the opportunity to come here and learn about this unforgetable expirence. life may be hard but i will get through it, i have before... lol